I Forgot About This Part.

Silly me.

In my desire to no longer be pregnant and to return to feeling normal again, I forgot all about how WONDERFUL the body is postpartum!  That's sarcasm in case you didn't catch on to it.  This time I'm not referring to postpartum depression (which is very real and sucks extremely badly btw) but to physical feelings postpartum.

Yeah, I can eat happily again, smells aren't killing me, I can see my feet, and my intestines are back in my abdomen again....but that's not what bugs me postpartum.

What bugs me is my hormonal upheaval.

I'm super sensitive to hormonal changes.  Little changes in my hormones are very much noticed by me since my body tends to go "HEY, SOMETHING'S NOT EXACTLY RIGHT!" at the slightest uptick or downtick of hormone levels.  If my body goes into crisis mode at the smallest of hormonal changes, you can't even begin to imagine how my body reacts (translation: goes completely haywire) when big changes in hormones hit.

Now granted, I'm happy to no longer be pregnant. But the grief of postpartum jacked up does not leave me.  My boobies are sore and not from nursing.  My body  is in a uproar somehow, which does not make any sense to me, but is all related to lactation and the lack of all those preggie hormones.  I remember this happening after Arianna was born, but back then I just thought it was my body reacting to finally having food after starving for 9 months. Now that it's happening again, I connected the dots....and realize it's just that postpartum kinda sucks.

It will stop, but it'll take a while before it does.  Then I'll be okay. It's just that waiting for it to be okay SUCKS.

Regardless, this is WAYYYYYYY better than being pregnant!